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 Wednesday, July 21, 2010
 at 10:48 PMYa just 5 minutes after you are online i start a quarrel with you , Do you think I want to say all these ? Because I feel , why am i always going for the extra mile in everything. I see its raining so heavily outside, I sms you asked you to be careful, And it's not only once! Its EVERY TIME whenever it rains heavily, I will just send a sms to you , I'm just being concern ! I started work the 2nd day, It rained so heavily in the morning, I got to walk so far to reach my office, did i get any sms from you ? NO ! I can be concern about you, But you ? You don't !! I tell you all these, Your reply is '' then what can i do other then say sorry '' What? after i said so much you still don't still don't know what i want ? I don't want you to say sorry you are not wrong, All i asked is alittle bit of concern to me , Is that asking too much ? I You know It hurts me alot to see why am i always the one doing all these, feeling you don't even care about me. During my lunch time, I would send u messages to say I'm going off for lunch, Hope you enjoy your lunch and work also, But always i would add a ' no need reply' in the message, Cause I don't want waste you sms or should i be more truthful to myself? I Don't want to see myself expecting for your reply, In the end disappointed, I know you are working, you are busy no time to even stop by to reply a sms, Your hands are full carrying heavy files, I understand. Always tell me you care about me, But sometimes i really can't feel. Ya all my words are hurting you , and all your actions are hurting me also, And those pictures we took, Even a normal friend would say send me those pictures, But you ? You don't even have the feelings of you want or you don't want. While me, keeping everything, Taking pictures of everything, Because i scared i might forget one day. you know ? I bring a notebook with me everyday to work, And i actually wrote messages to you inside as though i had sent the 'message' to you. I wrote in the book 'Ohyao Dumb dumb, I just reach office, enjoy your work later' ' eaten lunch?' Like i would get a reply back, YES I'm just so dumb. Because i know i cannot disturb you from work, And i don't want you to feel annoyed, You tell me you are very 辛苦, I tried not to voice out. You know how it feels when you tell the person you are very 辛苦, You are indirectly saying ' you caused me to be like that ' What went wrong ? Why we become like this, You always say ' why you like that ' YA WHY I LIKE THAT ? WHY MUST IT BE ME THAT HAVE CHANGED ?? Didn't you change also ? You weren't like that last time, You wont get angry over small things, Now you are pissing off even the smallest things. Especially when we go cactus, Its not that i dont want to help you to arrange or what, Sometimes after my arrangement I ask how? You gave me the look like i done it badly, So you own self arrange again, And i don't know why, Your face turned black, Maybe you angry i didn't help you , Just stand there and look. But not only once loh, It's almost every time. Back at pushcart, we didn't quarrel like this before, even though we see each EVERYDAY, Because we don't hide things. You got a password for your handphone, So what if i know your pin ? Can i go in and see your phone? Can i see your pictures/videos? I'm not checking on you or something, Just browsing your handphone, I don't even go to your inbox and see your messages and i respected you i asked if i could see your folders, You snatch back your phone sat there and kept quiet, Do you know alot things went through my mind when you did that? Ya it happened so long ago, Why i go say again, because it hurt me so much you know? Up till now !!! Now you don't even show me your handphone, you tell me thats your privacy, Dont have to show me everything. 你說我疑神疑鬼, 你不這樣我會想東想西嗎. I don't know what to say anymore, I'm very tired you know? I just feel like giving up everything. I'm not saying you done not enough, It's enough, I'm really happy. Probably, I'm just talking rubbish here, I made you so stressed Sorry. Dumb dumb, Sorry okay :( Sometimes it isn’t until we lose something that you then later realize how grateful we should have been to have what it is we had in the first place. I know its very boring to read a whole chunk of words, Here are some pictures taken last friday, Birthday celebrations for July     Ceo & me, he say he doesnt like to take picture, So ours very special, We take backview, Lol -.- And he's holding my hand, eating my toufu, 
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