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曾沛慈 -愛情怎麼喊停 Stephanie       Archive
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 Thursday, June 30, 2011
 at 9:01 AMDinner with family at Jurong Point last week ! Food was so so only. My popo's birthday!! We ate longevity bun also ! Popo looks happy that day, probably quite long never come out since she's discharge from the hospital. My beloved auntyyyyy :D   The koi and panadol. Mr L came all the way to Tampines to give me this laaaaa. Cause earlier that day I've been saying i wana drink koi. And i got headaches the wholeeee day. He whatsapp me at night, asked me to go downstairs. Damn shocked laaaaaa. At the same time very toucheddd (:  Yesterday went to eat Soup Restaurant with Mr L. The food there was great !!!!!!! The chickenn is damnnnnn niceeeee laaaaaa. And the fish also, alot of collagen, hahahaha. Mr L treat me eh, So happy ! LOL   xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, June 23, 2011
at 11:00 PMPicture i took with Shao yang... Last last sunday. Had dinner with him at Parkway His shades, I wana buy one like his! But don't suit my face. Paiseh, Hair very messy. Hahahaa I had macarons just now!!! :D I can finish 6 of them in less then 5mins, LOL ! Thanks for the Macarons :D I still can't decide what to wear to work tomorrow. I think i need to go shop for more clothes next week. After i get my pay. Tomorrow is Friday liao!!! FINALLY. Saturday going to have dinner at Jurong Point, celebrate popo's birthday :D Can't make it to Dr A.R Bernard service :( Maybeeee go on Sunday morning. Goodnights     xoxo, you know you love me Monday, June 20, 2011
at 9:49 AMYesterday I went to that place. Remember the first time we went there, we had a huge quarrel you kicked the seats at the bustop. you shouted at me. And I'm crying down there. You told me that you do not know what I'm thinking. Cause I'm not communicating with you. After that you hug me and say that you're sorry for shouting at me. I felt that, all the shouting is worth it. All those crying is nothing compared to your hug. You kissed me and tell me it's going to be alright. That's the first time i saw the another side of you. The second time we went there, you asked me to give you some time, to find the feelings. I gave you time, during these periods i dare not mention about this. Cause I'm afraid you would give me the answer i do not wish to hear. Remember you held my hands and told me you will try really really hard. I believed you. You told me you're trying very hard. But why is it that i can't feel anything at all? I don't see you putting your efforts in me, at all. That day when you told me your answer, I couldn't stop crying. Why wasn't it that answer i wanted? I already tried so so so hard. I give the best i could. But why can't you see what I'm doing? At early 2010. I was only working part time, earning so little. That i could barely pay all my bills. My dad still got to provide me allowance everyday. I wanted to save money for your birthday. I ate the same food everyday. Rice and 1 vege. It only cost $2. So that i can save money to buy you presents and we could go eat good food during your birthday. I saw your bag was tearing, and i heard you saying that your mouse got some problems. I want to give you the best. I bought a crumpler backbag and a razer mouse and a belt for you. That's all my pay for the month you know? Why can't you see my efforts? Being able to celebrate your birthday, on the actual day somemore I'm very happy. Xmas was coming in a few months time. i started to save a few hundred dollars every month starting from Sept. Save money so that we could go pan together and i can buy presents for you. I bought an most expensive present i ever bought in my entire life. I know buying presents won't make you love me. What i want you to see is my efforts being put in. But you did not see that. I bought that watch for you with my own money. You told your mum you found the watch outside. Do you know how sad i am? Why can't you even tell your mum that's a gift from a -- friend. But yet you say, you found this watch outside. My money, my effort that i took leaves specially to search for a nice watch for you. But you said you found it. I seriously.. don't know how to react back. But during my birthday you did not even prepare anything for me at all. And when you arrived at the interchange, i asked why are you so late. I got scolded by you - on my birthday. Shouldn't i deserve to be treated better? Atleast on my birthday? During Countdown 2011, i wanted to countdown with you so much!! But you tell me you don't want. You want to sleep. Okay, fine. This is not - you. You are not that Raymond i know. That Raymond, He would wait for me hrs at Far East. He would accompany me to shopping. He will text me when it's raining and asked me to be careful He will get angry if i didn't take my meals regularly He will buy my favorite puccho He will wait for me to online He will accompany me for dinner, even though he has eaten. He will let me hug his hand on bus. He will not hurt me Where have you been??????? I didn't text you for 5 days. And i didn't receive your text for 5 days also. Is it, these 5 days doesn't make any different to you?? With or without my text its still the same. Maybe without my messages you will feel better, cause you got no time to reply me. You went to KL without telling me, I'm not ok with it. Why can't you just even inform me at all? When i pop this question at you. You reply me: ' I really don't understand, i go overseas must tell all my friends not to sms me? Tell my customer i not in sg, don't call me? Tell my colleague i not in sg don't find me? " So what does your this sentence means? you are saying that ME and your colleagues and your customers and your friends at the same priority? WHAT AM I TO YOU ? Do you know how anxious and worried i got when i couldn't reach you. Do you know how sad i am when i wake up and see that there's no text from you saying that you will be going KL. I asked why!! why you didn't inform me. You told me you FORGET. That's the WORST excuses to use. How could you forget things like that? Will you forget to shit? YOU SIMPLY DON'T HAVE THE HEART TO DO SO LA. WHY TELL ME YOU FORGET? you told me you forget, because you're not used to reporting your actions to people. Why do you call it reporting??? I didn't ask you to report where you go what you eat everyday to me. But things like that, you go overseas and something happens and i do not know Even though if i know i can't do anything. But could you let me feel better? you know? I'm very stupid. I will believe whatever you say. I really believe that you forget. Yes. Till now i still do !! Can I ask you to open up your heart and feel? There's this girl here. She's really trying her very best. putting in 100% of effort in. But you asked yourself, have you been treated her fairly? What is her to you? Why do you have to always make empty promises to her. Why are you always hurting her with your words. You know whatever you say to her, she will just take it in. And the next time you meet her, she'll be smiling at you again. Didn't she gave you everything unconditionally ? She's very simple you know. She doesn't need someone 180cm to give her that sense of security she's lack of. I know I'm not perfect, I have my flaws. But I'm trying my best. Everybody is saying that you are just treating me like a toy you know? But I'm defending you. Because i know you better then the rest of the people. But why are you showing me that what they are saying is correct? It's been like that for more then a year already. I'm swallowing everything in that maybe one day I might explode you know? How must i make you be able to understand how i feel? I don't know what to do now, I feel very lost :( Where are you? After saying all these, my heart hurts even more :( I should have run away, I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place Without a word you gave me love Without a word your love abandons me xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, June 19, 2011
at 9:34 AMSteve's Farewell on 8th june. and im blogging only now. I neglected my blog for 2 weeks laaaaa :( okayy. Pictures :D Hope steve will find a better job :D  With Shirly  with Kathy  with leefen  with sieh yan  with rose  with alan ong  with kian peng  with Joey  PUKE!! ACT CUTE I hate this women. she sucks. WAHAHA  With alan Lim  With Chye huat and Zhiwei  With calvin  I look stupid. Why must pose like that? LOL  xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, June 9, 2011
at 2:44 PMHUNGRY !!! Today 7am I'm already in office. Cause i needed to print the flyers for that bitch. She's crazy. At Tuesday morning asked me to print 1000 copies of colored flyer, she wants it by Weds afternoon. Crazy anot? The office color printer move so slow. She kept rush me. URGENT URGENT. Ask me to do faster. Damn you. Rush me got use is it???!!! Is your lousy printer print so slow !!!! Since it's so urgent then ask printing Company do right? Don't know save what money. As thought we print ourself no cost like that. Just one afternoon i changed 9 Ink cartridges already. One cartridge cost $26. I think the bloody printer used up more then 18 cartridge. Cartridge also need money, paper also need money. Might as well bring to Printing company and do. Save all the troubles. 7am reach office, the corridoors lights not even on!!! Superrrrr dark, Machiam horror flim those corridoors. But luckily my dad went up with me D: Oh ya, GOOOOD NEWS :D The cctv not facing me now, it turned to face Alan. HAHAHA. Nobody can see what I'm doing liao. Hohoho Please don't turn back. If not, I very stress. Yesterday was Steve's last day in office ): Damn sad laaa. Another person leaving. When is my turn !! I haven found a job yet ): Took alot of photos. Will blog them later.     Damn cute! My mum used to buy it for me when I'm in primary school. Biscuit on top with chocolate cone!   xoxo, you know you love me Monday, June 6, 2011
at 2:08 PMWas packing my drawers yesterday, Cleared one drawers to put clothes. My wardrobe hang till no space to hang already, Now need fold and put in drawers. LOL. Found alot stuff. I used 3hrs to clear one drawers, TOO MANY THINGS. I've kept alot things, things that people give me i just throw in that drawer and never touch them. I have things, that are 4 years ago. K, there are some of the things i found, reminds me of alot of memories! I won't throw them =) This keychain was given to me by my first boyfriend SL. "你是我老婆" Damn sweet right? On the same day, we went to watch Black Night, horror movie eh, so scary. My first movie date with a guy! Oh ya, i was 13years old that time, HAHA, so young. He was a flirt ;x Damn flirt. Quite handsome (that time) alot girls like him or what. I remember we went to Arcade he was dancing Para para. 2 girls went over and passed him THEIR handphone, ask him for his number or something. Right infront of me!! :( And i can still remember bits and pieces, that he confesses to 2 of my friends while we are still together. What a bastard. I can't remember how we broke up, but he initiated it. I was freaking sad laaa. I cried for duno how many months. I smoke, I cut myself. Fucking foolish i know. And last year, he asked if we could be together again. he say he will change and things like that. bla bla bla. I don't believe and I don't love him anymore.   Pan Pacific card! I've got alot of Pan pacific papers, envelopes, pen, sugar sachet. All taken from the room. LOL. damn kiasu i know ._. I've been to Pan twice! 2009 and 2010. Pan pacific is a veryy nice hotel :D some time ago, i hinted Ah dumb. I pointed at Swissotel and told him " that hotel very tall horrr" "Can see fireworks one lehhh" "during countdown got fireworks" He gave me a very cold nod and say "Oh". I believe he knows what I'm trying to say. But he's pretending to act blur. I want to go Swissotel during 31st dec! Then we could countdown the year and watch fireworks together! We never done that before :( Countdown yes, fireworks no. I hope we can go, chances are very slim =(  I found this photo!!! Me & Eunice. We're the chopsticks sisters (in the past) Zhanwei gave us this name. Cause we are both skinny and tall. Like chopstick! Hahaha. She was my secondary best friend. I can't remember when and how i know her. Should be Sec 3 i guess. And she asked me out for dinner @ Downtown East Sakura. I must think very very hard then can remember. Old already. Soon i became really close with her, and i brought her to church also. We were so close that, we go to school together, recess time together and also go home together. She would come to my bustop in the morning, then we take 28 to school. Then she introduced me to work part time in Mcd. We got alot of memories working inside. I remembered we worked in the Kitchen together. Roger say she very noisy. After work we would go Arcade to play bishi bashi. Hit the buttons hit till hand pain. Played till they close. Hahaha. I remembered then we went to help Tam 201 Mcd. We kept complain to the manager we want to go for lunch, hahaha. There's one time we wore our Mcd uniform to church, super embarrassing laaaa ;x I remember, we pon school EVERYTIME. As in, almost 1 week once. We would take 28 all the way to Toa Payoh or go to East Coast Beach. I cycle, she roller blade. and slack there till school's over. I remember begining of Sec 4, we pon school and were late everyday. Our names are being called in the morning assembly. We got suspended from school for 1 week. HAHA, bad student. I can't remember, did we quarrel ? Did we fight? how come suddenly like not in contact anymore. I really really cannot remember :( Now things are different, you have your new friends. I have mine. Maybe it doesn't matters to you, afterall it's so long ago. Though it's over a long time ago. All these memories are kept within me, Somewhere in my heart. Though i don't say out. It's a pity to lose a friend whom you had so much memories with.  My tithe receipt !! That was 2007 when i was still attending church. Church gives me alot of memories lah, Service, cell group, fellowship Kinda miss those days. After church we would go Tampines, bedok simpang for dinner/fellowship. Though i could not recall, but it was really happy those times! Really alot alottt of memories, Emerge together, breakaway camp, prayer meeting at Indoor stadium. I manage to dig out some photos i found at friendster. E408 Mac donalds~ These are written during the emerge camp! Oh i remember, we still order Macdonalds at night. And there's a bat in the school. I brought my Spongebob to camp. HAHA               xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, June 4, 2011
at 8:51 PMIt's Saturday! Although I don't have to work today, I still got to work up early to go lavender - collect passport. Yeah! Finally collected it liao. I can go overseas :D Watched Pirates in the evening with Ah dumb. We quarreled earlier, we didn't talk much today ): He passed me My X-Mini speaker! Hello kitty one ehh ! Special edition! Cost more also ;x Wahahahaha, Happy !!     xoxo, you know you love me Older Posts |